Happy Friday

So i've been in a bit of a funk the past couple days i believe from a steep sub-drop which only means i was wicked high on the session from Sir a few days ago - totally worth it. Sir gave me a little TLC last night and i feel much better and am eager for the next session (maybe a full weekend session).

i've had some random thoughts i'd like to share. The first is i noticed on Recon that some Dom's described themselves as average which to me felt like a complete contradiction and i found that distracting. Maybe that's my preference for any Dom to be extremely confident and egotistical and have that reflected in there every behavior. Maybe it confuses me because i like to think any Dom would know how subs will look up to them in wonder. Maybe i'm just floating a pink cloud and am totally unrealistic. Thoughts?

Sir asked me last night to make a series of seemingly perhaps easy decision which to me felt more like a punishment/training. Sir asked me what movie or show I'd like to most watch with him and i had to pick this was immensely frustrating and overwhelming for me and i must have changed my mind 30 times before Sir yelled at me. I really wanted to just enjoy what he wanted to watch and enjoy him enjoying himself. my personal preference can alter rapidly and drastically i'm really better suited not deciding things (sometimes even the seemingly simple things). Its not that there are not things i specifically enjoy i just almost always want what Sir wants - why does that ever have to be complicated?! There are also very few decisions i want to make on my own little things, big things, i hate making decisions or maybe i'm just scared of them.

All in all it was a much needed evening of TLC and a healthy reminder why i love Sir and whatever decision he makes. And i remain somewhat certain he was reminding why He is the one who makes the decisions and put me in my place. He always finds different and inventive ways of accomplishing the same basic things - for which i'm very grateful.

Well Happy Friday everyone. i'm noticing a gradual increase of page views and i hope it continues. Please do not hesitate to comment and let me know if there is special content you'd like me to include or just to say hello.

jay