i Don't Like Mondays

i don't like Mondays but, who does? Not that anything real bad happened today but nothing really good happened either. i did slack on my chores today because i got lazy and lost my focus..i'm sure there will be discipline dispensed soon enough and rightfully so. i hope that Dom's in general know how distressing it is also for a sub to loose his focus and mental sub space. In any event neither situation will be tolerated for very long and i do take a great deal of comfort in that and have faith Sir will put my world back on track. i do doubt it will initially be fun for me but it does not need to be and i will just be grateful for the kick in the pants (real or metaphorically).

i wonder at time if it would be good for us for me to work with more sub/pup/slave boys, in that training and instructing them more will in turn improve my obedience skills and enhance my sub side. i realize that i really am a pack animal and it feels natural to me to be in a pack and i am an alpha slave. If anyone has feedback or advice on this i would be appreciative for your sharing your thoughts on the subject.

i'm increasing anxious to post pictures on the blog for one to answer the requests from Doms ( i do love to please) but also anxious for the element of humiliation attached to adding the pictures. Perhaps this is why Sir is easing me into it. i have been granted a good deal of liberty managing the blog and recon accounts and correspondence and that has been good however, i am also eager for Sir to take more direct control if only to show me that he can. That would reduce a good deal of anxiety for me - we'll see what happens.

Maybe not such a bad Monday.

Until next time,
--jay--